It has been a while since my last blog. Of course, this wasn't intentional by any means. To tell you the honest truth, every night I've sat with my computer looking at this blank screen trying to figure out what to write. Writer's block is something that's plagued me often since I started writing in early high school. I haven't found a great cure for it. I've read numerous writing prompts online and nothing really struck my fancy. I've wanted to keep my blog posts more focused, not just updating everyone on my day which I was guilty of a while back, so it's been a little tough. I don't actually have a point to this blog in mind as I type right now, I'm hoping something turns up... maybe I'll talk about Writer's Block itself.

Sometimes when I get writer's block I wonder if it means something more than being out of ideas or uninspired. For instance, sometimes I wonder if it means I'm not really meant to be a writer. Do all writers get blocked like this all the time? Obviously not all the time because they're still pumping stuff out. It really sucks to have a desire to write but be completely uninspired at the same time.

I guess that's a very general issue as well. It sucks to have a desire to do anything and be completely uninspired to do it. As a matter of fact, now that I think about it, I'm suffering from that in at least three different places right now. Obviously the first is the writing. I just haven't had any motivation or ideas to help me write. Another thing would be dieting/exercising. I really horribly badly need to get back on my diet and start exercising on a very regular basis. I'm horribly out of shape, badly overweight, and extremely unhealthy. I think it's gotten to the point where I'm actually a little self-conscious about it, too, which is something fairly new.

I used to be the embodiment of not caring what other people thought, especially when it came to my appearance. I don't know whether it was getting married or just growing up, but I do care a little now. I still don't care a lot, mind you, but I definitely care a little. So I don't know what's going on with that, but it's definitely something I need to do. I read that Blake has lost 24 pounds. How awesome is that? Pretty awesome, that's how awesome. I would like to lose about double that. Honestly even triple.

And the most important thing that I have the desire to do but am completely uninspired to do at the moment for some reason (DEVIL) is reading my Bible. I was doing very well for a long time about reading every day, but I haven't read for about a week because I don't know what I'm meant to be reading. I know that just reading is better than trying to figure out what to read and not reading, but for some reason I am just uninspired.

So, I'm not sure what exactly to do about it, but hopefully things will change. A good kick in the right direction would be that the repair on my car would be something covered under warranty or by recall. That would be nice. Anyways, thanks for reading, comment, and be on the lookout for something big.

-Ryan J. Schwimmer