I cannot even begin to describe how ready I am for the wedding to be here. But I'm going to try my best to do so for the sake of the blog. Like I mentioned in my last post, for the past six months or so now, the wedding has been the primary thing on my mind. When Tiffany and I were first discussing who would be doing what different things, the first thing I volunteered (and somewhat demanded) was to be in charge of the music, for instance. Since then, as much as Tiffany likes to think otherwise, I've been working diligently on accumulating enough music, finding the right music, and organizing it. That's just one thing.

Whether it's music or just planning any one of the many other things that go into a wedding, it's dominated both myself and Tiffany's time. There have been many times I've thought about how much I wished we had actually spent the money to hire a wedding coordinator. Even though we're having a small wedding, I completely understand why people would do it now. It just seems like many stressed-out times and fights could have been saved if we weren't doing it all ourselves. But alas, we did, and it's almost over.

As much as I've been trying to say that to myself, it doesn't really help the stress level at all. Yeah, the stress has been on-and-off during this time, but now it seems to be on-and-on (and on and on). Especially when the stupid government won't get a stupid passport back even though it was ordered at the beginning of February. I have no doubt that it's going to get here in time, but this is getting ridiculous. She sent off for her passport February 1, using the regular method, which at the VERY longest should have taken 8 weeks. 10-11 weeks later, we still don't have it. Add that to all the trouble we had with my passport, and it really gets ridiculous.

But I digress. I'm pretty hard on myself most of the time. I think I've inherited a certain trait of my family which involves making too much out of a situation and stressing out entirely too much. So I have made it a little harder on myself. Once I realize exactly how much there is to do, I start to think about the worst possible scenarios. So that's pretty bad.

Granted, a lot of my stress has also come from places I didn't expect. When I first started this whole thing and thought about my attendants for the wedding party, my original plan was to have Blake, Nathan, and Aaron as my co-best men, with Alex and Adam as ushers. Then a few months ago I found out that Adam was being shipped off to Iraq for six months. I was really bummed about it for quite a while. So I asked my brother Randy to take his place. I wanted him in the wedding to begin with, but I knew that with his busy schedule and living in California and everything, some of the duties might be a little hard for him. He accepted. No problem. I was pressuring everyone to get measured for their tuxes so we could get those in, and the main problems I was having were with Aaron and Randy. Then one day I called Aaron to ask if he had gotten measured, and he lets me know that he will not be able to attend the wedding either. He has a big art show that he's been asked to be a part of, and it's a really big deal. Really super bummed about that as well. So I figured it wasn't a big deal, Nathan and Blake will be great as co-best men and I wouldn't need a replacement or anything. Then I called Randy and asked him for his tux measurements, and he told me that he has this super huge work thing he has to do (he's basically Mr. Important out there) and won't be able to come either. BIGGER bummer. So I asked Josh to complete the quartet and be the second usher, and he was cool with that.

Deep breaths. So that's what was going on there. I'm happy with the groomsmen I have selected now. I hate to make people feel like they were a second choice or something, but it's a small wedding so I couldn't have included everyone at first anyways. But now that I know that's set, it's taken a lot of stress off. Blake's planning a killer bachelor party (in geek terms, seeing as how the bachelor party is going to consist merely of a bunch of guys hanging out playing videogames), so that should be fun.

So with a month left now, we're starting to dwindle down the list of things left to do. Now that I know that, it's becoming a little easier to get motivated to finish things. After all of the things we've done, we know that it's almost over. We still have a little bit to do.


I guess there is light at the end of the tunnel.