Nerves
I think I'm starting to get nervous about the wedding.
It's a pretty weird feeling. I was nervous when I asked Tiffany to marry me, but that's just because I'm a pessimist and thought that she might say no. That was made worse when the day before my birthday (when I was to propose) Tiffany told me that her pastor decided to sit her down and made her promise to not get married or engaged for two years. This was, no doubt, brought on by her father, who was appalled and shocked when I asked his permission to propose.
The scenario, as it played out in my head, went like this: I call Mr. Grose and tell him of my plans approximately two weeks before. He doesn't give me the answer I was expecting, saying he wanted to think about it and call me back. I wait for about a week and a half or so and he calls me back. He said that at the time he couldn't give me his blessing. When he realized I was going to ask her anyways, he freaks out. He calls Pastor Walker and says something very close to "HELP! MY DAUGHTER'S BOYFRIEND IS GOING TO ASK HER TO MARRY HIM AND IT'S GOING TO RUIN HER LIFE!" Thus, Pastor talks to Tiffany.
So anyway, the day before I go to propose she tells me this. Blah, blah, blah, obviously I went ahead and asked and she said yes. So I was nervous then. But since then, I haven't really been nervous about getting married until now. It's not because I think I might be making a mistake. It could just be the actual wedding itself (as in, the event). But as I sit here thinking about getting married, the feeling is in my stomach--like butterflies or something. Maybe it's that now that it's a little more than three weeks away, I'm finally starting to really be excited about it.
I think it's just the event itself that's making me nervous. We've gone through a lot to plan all of this, and I think I'll feel responsible if everyone doesn't have a great time. I know I shouldn't worry about that because it's their own stupid faults if they don't have a good time, but I do. It's probably just my pessimism peeking through, but I'm also a little worried that something's going to go wrong. Does the supporting cast I've chosen have the ability to take care of something if it goes wrong? I think so. I hope so. I don't have doubts about everyone.
Tiffany just told me she's a little bit nervous too. I'm not sure if she's telling the truth or just saying it to make me feel better, but either way it works.
'Til the next time I say a sentence and it inspires me to write a full blog entry...
-Ryan J. Schwimmer
It's a pretty weird feeling. I was nervous when I asked Tiffany to marry me, but that's just because I'm a pessimist and thought that she might say no. That was made worse when the day before my birthday (when I was to propose) Tiffany told me that her pastor decided to sit her down and made her promise to not get married or engaged for two years. This was, no doubt, brought on by her father, who was appalled and shocked when I asked his permission to propose.
The scenario, as it played out in my head, went like this: I call Mr. Grose and tell him of my plans approximately two weeks before. He doesn't give me the answer I was expecting, saying he wanted to think about it and call me back. I wait for about a week and a half or so and he calls me back. He said that at the time he couldn't give me his blessing. When he realized I was going to ask her anyways, he freaks out. He calls Pastor Walker and says something very close to "HELP! MY DAUGHTER'S BOYFRIEND IS GOING TO ASK HER TO MARRY HIM AND IT'S GOING TO RUIN HER LIFE!" Thus, Pastor talks to Tiffany.
So anyway, the day before I go to propose she tells me this. Blah, blah, blah, obviously I went ahead and asked and she said yes. So I was nervous then. But since then, I haven't really been nervous about getting married until now. It's not because I think I might be making a mistake. It could just be the actual wedding itself (as in, the event). But as I sit here thinking about getting married, the feeling is in my stomach--like butterflies or something. Maybe it's that now that it's a little more than three weeks away, I'm finally starting to really be excited about it.
I think it's just the event itself that's making me nervous. We've gone through a lot to plan all of this, and I think I'll feel responsible if everyone doesn't have a great time. I know I shouldn't worry about that because it's their own stupid faults if they don't have a good time, but I do. It's probably just my pessimism peeking through, but I'm also a little worried that something's going to go wrong. Does the supporting cast I've chosen have the ability to take care of something if it goes wrong? I think so. I hope so. I don't have doubts about everyone.
Tiffany just told me she's a little bit nervous too. I'm not sure if she's telling the truth or just saying it to make me feel better, but either way it works.
'Til the next time I say a sentence and it inspires me to write a full blog entry...
-Ryan J. Schwimmer